Lost in the Clutter.

Growing up. Moving fast. Not having a second to just  b r e a t h e.

Before this break, I felt as though there was no time to spare. Everything was moving so quickly. Alone and confused, I didn't know what was going on. Thank the lord for this break from reality.

My winter break has been filled with refreshing people, old movies, and new beginnings. A couple of times a week, I have been treating myself to an old Indian movie. Call me a fob or whatever, but old Indian movies are so heart-warming.

While reminiscing on my childhood, I thought about so many memories. Filled with happiness, joy, and no worries in the world, I wonder how things used to be so easy. All I really worried about was what color pen I was going to do my homework in or if my brother and I were going to ride our bikes or our scooters. Growing up is a part of life but it doesn't have to happen so quickly.

My mom always tells me that "this time will never come back", and I am actually starting to understand what she means. Spend every moment you can with your family, whether it is with your grandparents, brothers, sisters, or parents. There is a point in time where some of your closest friends, stop being friends and become family. Surround yourself with the people you love.

I've been through a pretty tough time with different situations but through it all I've always become stronger because of my family and friends. I never realized how important some people are in my life. You realize a lot when you are given time alone to just reflect. All I know is that I am so blessed to have such wonderful people in my life.

So for all the smiles, laughs, hugs, and love you all have provided for me, I thank you. I appreciate everything you all have done for me, and for that I hope to do the same one day.

I won't let you fade into darkness.

xoxo,
Kashish Ali